How do I start this? another immigrant journey story about my creative career, motherhood lifestyle, and me, yes, me is not the “tia pati” the friend and the leader. It is me! the woman!
It is something related to one of my past blogs. There’s a value of gold I always carried, and maybe it looks at a different angle to “Americas” or friends in general. Should I blame my culture? my feminity? who knows. All I know is that I LOVE MYSELF SO MUCH!
And, for sure is to let things go, and learn how to let them go. It is a task of practice, it is based on your mistakes, which, we should take those as gifts of wisdom. It is the first time in 2024 I have written in my artist’s website blog, to be a little bit open book, to have a connection to my audience. Well, 2024 has been another year with its challenges that have affected my mental health all these shifts of transition, transformation, and changes could be very uncertain to a level of anxiety can grow and become the demon that jeopardizes you in any of the fields. No one can understand that part of me as a woman, we all know how much WE deal with in society, nature, and real life. Part of the transition that I have been experiencing is still with the stigmas, and the mom judgments, I’m a freelancer so why I can’t make enough art? Tell you this, I have 3 jobs where I can ironically say “free labor” but it is part of the choices and consequences I am responsible for.
So dear you, If you are not in the “good headspace”, which at this point is it. You are doing amazing, the fact the uncertain attacks make you feel the worst human, those feelings that come from our past traumas, hug them. Please require some help as well, I have my therapist, psychiatrist, medium, and ritual healer lady, exercising and writing this. it seems a lot, OFC I don’t practice all these methods every day, but writing has helped and I am so blessed that you could read this.
The last week of August was rough for me, the frequency was a bit off, with some fears, tears, vulnerability to the core and the anxiety you can imagine how it was! But is all a way of protection that is not fun to feel, it is not!, but I feel grateful to keep bringing my faith to love what I do, to be transparent of my feelings and the most, allowing myself to have the opportunity to keep growing and have genuine connections. SAY AFTER ME YOU ARE CREATIVE, YOU ARE ENOUGH, YOU ARE POWER. Feel so inspired by the Help movie hehe. To my friends, last year I was trapped on a web, and you all stick there for me, to my art friends, I’M BACK again!, to my children I’m always been there for you and thanks to learn from me that money and material stuff doesn’t make me a “good mom”, that we are learning how to sacrifice and priotize, thanks boys! and for you all this math equation we must different to ourselves, I am still learning how to balance that out. Read you all later!